My Chest

Today is one of those days that I would like to do over, but I know that I can’t. I am not going to dwell on that, but I do want to reflect on it.

I spent most of my day in bed. It is now about 3 o’clock in the afternoon, and I am out of bed. I have cleaned up the kitchen and living room already. The fellas were messy, but safe. Two of the three fellas were down stairs with me in my room watching TV and playing games on devices. All the while, I am praying for God to heal the burning in my chest and asking for the mucus membranes to go back to normal back before it began the war on the infection raging within my chest. I have bronchitis. I was tested for CoVid to rule that out, and it came back as negative. In fact, my husband, me, and my three younger fellas were all tested and the results came back that we do not have the CoVid. I am grateful, relieved, and still coughing.

I have been taking a medication that usually is for sinus infections, but it has a couple of added medications within it to combat cold and flu symptoms. It helps immensely. I ran out yesterday. So today, the bronchioles in my chest are erupting with mucus and irritated. And of course, I am coughing that stuff up and deep breathing so as not to get pneumonia. I have not eaten or drank anything since yesterday. And as most everyone knows, you must stay hydrated when sick (or well for that matter). So now I am up drinking coffee first. Then I will drink my gallon of water (probably I will only get the 2 liters), and keep it moving. I have a whole list of things to do. However, I can get it done within the next two hours if I just get up and do it.

The biggest thing on the list – other than taking care of the fellas – is to make a post here. I don’t want you all to think that I have given up. I do have a post scheduled for Thursday BS, but I realize last week, I did not post. I have not given up on my blog. I won’t until I die. Morbid? Yes. But also honest? Yes!

I will continue to share my life experiences here whether they be viewed as small and ephemeral, or large and sensational. That is how we learn from others. I grew up with others not talking about the little things. And so my siblings and I just fumbled through learning by trial and error. With my fellas, I teach them about the seemingly little things along with the larger, more big picture things. So with that, I am sharing my little sickness story to share with you that it is alright to lie in bed with your kids drawing pictures on the printer paper next to you with the “special markers” that you have set aside for your planner. It is absolutely okay to have one of your kids cuddle next to you and play Roblox on your phone while you hug him and admire his skills. It is definitely okay to go into the kitchen and see that the kids have fed them selves from the left overs that you said were okay to do after they asked. And it is okay to rest when you are unwell. Do not beat yourself up about resting. It is rest while you are unwell so that you can go-go-go while you are well, or go-go-go while you are unwell and never get well. That is the take away from this for me.

Gotta go fill up my cup…